Well,I just finished one more round on the Round Ripple. That’s all I can do…1 round a day. I just don’t have the energy to really work on it cuz I’m so drained from coughing so much. Mom has it now too,and she’s off to the doctor to see what can be done. I have no insurance,so docs are out for me. I’ll post a pic of the RR as soon as I have enough done to show.
On another note,I have a little history for you,dear readers. In 1987,I fell in love with the guy of my dreams. Oh,he was everything in the universe to me. We were together just about every day day for years! Then,in 1990,he decided to run off to Florida and get married to some hoobaskank. I was so hurt,that I have literally not been in love nor had sex since that time! Yep…that long. I built a wall around me that is totally impenetrable. I vowed never to go through that again!
Monday at work,a customer asks my name. I say,”Why? What’d I do?” He replies,”You don’t remember me?” He removes is glasses,and there are the eyes that I fell into back in’87!! Dear readers…it was him!!!!! We talked,played catch up,he left,and you know what? There was nothing there the whole time. No love,no hurt,no nothing. I realize that I finally got closure by being able to finally see him one more time and notice something. Even though he kinda looks the same as he did back then,and he kinda acts the same as he did back then,he just ain’t him anymore. And by that I mean….I now see that he just is not the crap that I put myself through all these years and that I can finally say…Screw you! You never deserved what I gave you! I’m getting on with my life!!!
Oh,and by the way,the entire time we played catch up,he conveniently changed all the years around so that nothing ever happened between us. As far as he could tell,we really never hung out that much. I guess that’s how he has to deal with the fact that even though he’s on his second marriage and has five kids…there was once a time that he was in a loving and sexual realtionship with a guy. Ummm,denial ain’t a river in Egypt.
I gotta run now. Much to cough up before work. I’ll be back later!!
